Day 37 - Crack in Your Armour

The first line refers to me, because I am sick AGAIN, if its not that then I'm in the hospital or I'm getting the Heimlich Maneuver . . . you know what I mean its just one of those things. This really doesn't have a chorus its a bunch of verses I'm just gonna write it like a poem.

It it's not one thing it's another 

same patterns repeating themselves 

an intricate design of epic proportions 

a crack in your armour 

Try not to make a mistake you make another

it's hard not to blame oneself 

or theories of ethics verses morals

I've found flaws in your reasonings 

If you say one thing I'll say another

are we in agreeance with each other?

or am I walking on broken glass

I feel the glitch in the matrix

If it's not one thing it's something else

I'm not going to beg you 

it's a waste of time to say the least 

I'm not going to be the one to put that crack in your armour 

Apparently agreeance is deemed OBSOLETE in the english dictionary. My computer is saying it's wrong and not a word BUT IT IS. also a glitch in the matrix (if you've seen the matrix) when they said that they meant deja vu so for me I'm using it like . . . history repeating itself. 

Day 36 - Bicycle

There actually IS a bike just chilling in my living room. It's Tanya's, my roommates.

Verse 1 - There's a bicycle in my living room

I'm tempted to go out and ride

but this weather is not convincing 

and I don't want to go outside

Verse 2 - You're calling me with those wheels

teasing me with that body of yours

that smooth black metal with red writing

dreaming up adventures you've never been before

Chorus - Take me on a ride

through streets I've never been 

to places I've never seen

down roads that extend for hours on end 

Verse 3 - So mysterious you are

as you lean against the wall

dunno who you think you are

trying to persuade me outside 

(repeat chorus)

Verse 4 - But your tires are flat

your dreams are shattered 

you hold yourself back 

like nothing really mattered 

Don't play coy with me 

You're not a boy you see

You're a bicycle 

Between the last chorus and the 4th verse I got on the bike and rode it into the kitchen and back to the living room realizing it had a flat tire . . .

Day 35 - Heavy Eyes, Sore Throat

Today was a scary day. I already wasn't feeling well and on top of that when I tried to take something FOR my sickness I swallowed a pill and it wouldn't go down and of course I panic it was the scariest thing that ever happened to me my boss had to perform the heimlich maneuver! My throat is killing me and I sound like a frog I tried singing . . . no. All I can do is rest.

Verse 1 - Eyes are heavy but I can't sleep 

throat is sore & I can barely speak

skull is pounding like a ton of bricks on my head

I can't function on these weak legs

unsteady are these quivering hands

just give me an extra day

an extra day of rest

Chorus - Deal with the pain

cause I'm afraid to take anything

push through

it'll go away soon

but it doesn't feel that way 

Verse 2 - My whole body is just aching

I'm out of it but what else is new

my eye lids are heavy think I'll sleep

throat is still sore so I won't speak

my head is killing me . . . softly 

oh . . . softly 

(repeat chorus)

I wasn't really all in with this song . . . still just taking it easy this was worst than when I went to the hospital. I'd take that over  again in a heartbeat 

Day 34 - Nothing To Offer & The Station

ITS A DOUBLE FEATURE. I was able to write two songs in less than 2 hours . . . whoa.

First song is Nothing To Offer inspired by the fact that WHEN someone I care about is hurting I was told that I look at them like they're broken it's only cause I'm empathic towards them.

Verse 1 - I've got nothing to offer

all I've got are these hands

give me something to do

I feel useless to you

Chorus - I'm not one to say let it out, let it out

Don't hold it inside, talk to me, let it out

Verse 2 - All I can do is listen to you

I've been told that's one thing I can do

you were not meant to take on this burden

give it to me and I'll bare it

(repeat chorus)

Verse 3 - I've got nothing to offer

all I got are these hands

all I can do is listen to you

that is one thing I can surely do

That is one thing I can do for you 

2ND song! It's called The station. My friend Fran had posted a picture of a train station in Berlin (WHICH I LOVE) I also love those european train stations so old and antique like I just love it. Anyway the picture said "born to die in Berlin" so I thought hmmm something sad has to happen at this station. This is what came out.

Verse 1 - If you get on that train we're done

if you go away we're through

why would you do this to me

so careless and thoughtlessly 

Chorus - Standing at the station 

watching you with your bags

don't get on that train

I need you back

Verse 2 - I don't want to stand alone here

crying my eyes out, for what?

people stare at me on the platform

I'm not strong enough to weather this storm

(repeat chorus)

If you get on that train we're over

if only I said it

maybe you would've stayed.

Day 33 - Canvas So Blue

Basically inspiration is in the first line. I woke up this morning and I was soo pleased that it was already getting light by the time I left for work it was quite bright. I LOVE SUMMER. FYI I'm up at 5am for work :P

Verse 1 - I like waking up at 5am 

to see the sun already rising

not walking when its dark out

and looking over my shoulder

Verse 2 - I can't wait til it's warmer 

no more sweaters no more coats

bring on the sun bring on the coast 

I'll leave foot prints in the sand

Chorus - The sky is full of clouds

the kind that paint pictures 

on a canvas so blue

the wind blows

whispering secrets in my ear 

the way you do 

Verse 3 - I love how the sun doesn't set til 8pm

then it's up again like it never slept

I could go walking by myself 

in the warm night summer air 

(repeat chorus x2)

I almost started writing another song for today cause I was going nowhere with this one and a few lines came to me as I was getting out of the shower so I started to use that buuuuut I eventually was going nowhere with THAT one so I stuck to this one.

Day 32 - Circuit Failure

the first line had just popped into my head at work but the melody was inpired by Young The Giant's "I Got" and the rest of the words just followed.

Verse 1 - You know which buttons to push

I misunderstood when you told me maybe

ask me again I want to answer right

I want to compromise, work it out

Verse 2 - Don't get your wires crossed 

you're bound to get lost at sea

watching you make your way to the surface

losing all meaning and purpose

Chorus - Circuit failure 

electrical breakdown

you've blown a fuse

checking all power lines

looking for warning signs

its catastrophic 

Verse 3 - Running on empty now

your battery's run out and sparks are flying

an electrical current surges through

everything inch of me

and its quite the sensation

(repeat chorus)

You know which buttons to push

I misunderstood you the other day 

really the subject is up for interpretation if you can find a hidden meaning then GREAT.

Day 31 - Spiraling Staircase

 Inspiration self quote "my self diagnosed ADD and my love of spiral stairs" don't really mix but ok.

Verse 1 - My mind's all over the map lately 

can't concentrate on one thing lately 

I think I have a slight case of A.D.D

Chorus - It's a spiraling staircase 

multiple steps I cannot follow

take it easy it's not a race

the higher I go the harder I swallow

Verse 2 - I'm often restless and can't stay still 

constantly struggling up a hill

my thoughts are racing and I'm fine until

I over think it

(repeat chorus)

Verse 3 - I'm the kind of person to procrastinate 

one of many undesirable traits

I swear I'm not trying to take a situation and exacerbate it

ok . . . I know probably 90% of my friends . . . no 100% of my friends will take the last line in the chorus and make it dirty . . . I also realized I spelled spiraling with two Ls and I had to change it 

Day 30 - How

No structure. no inspiration 

How did I get here

why didn't you let me know

if only you'd told me a long time ago

How did this happen

how could you do this to me

it's not the right time

said i was fine

but you could tell I was lying

Disillusion of you

force me to recollect our last visit

realizing all this time you kept quiet

How did this happen

what did I do wrong

we're not to blame

it's hard to explain

I'm sorry I don't feel the same

I'm responsible for my actions

I'll face the consequences

it's just one of those missed chances

Obstacles in your way 

ones I couldn't control

and those missed opportunities you never stole

How did I get here

How did this happen 

Day 29 - Can't Pull Away

unlike yesterday (despite yesterdays song) I had a really good day today. There is no specific inspiration for this song

Verse 1 - You put a smile on my face

the thought of you puts in in the right place

all you have to do is say the right thing

and I'm left with this aching

Verse 2 - you send shivers down my spine

I'm glad that you're all mine

you are all I want 

you are all I need

Chorus - When I look into your eyes

 I can't pull away

but lying in your arms

I'm reluctant to stay

Verse 3 - I know I sound cliche

even just saying that, I am

there's no point pushing away 

I'll just let it play out

(repeat chorus x2)

I'm kinda disgusted that its so mushy but it's just what came out . . . 

Day 28 - Bundles of Joy

I love babies I can't wait to have them. This is probably the happiest song I've ever written.

Verse 1 - With their tiny feet

their tiny toes

little bundles of joy

you don't want to let them go

Verse 2 - The way they laugh

oh it makes you smile

and when they cry

you hold them for a long long while

Chorus - Cause when they're young

so innocent so pure

you want to shield them from

the world, so cruel

Verse 3 - Those little tiny hand

oh those little fingers

you want to hold then in yours

they're so gentle

(repeat chorus)

(instrumental bridge)

Verse 4 - Their tiny feet

their tiny hands

they way they laugh

makes you smile

you never, oh you never, you never want to let them go